| so it's been more than a week back at home and i miss the EL so much. There is so much less freedom at home. All my friends at home are busy with classes and such. It's so weird that you have so many memories at home but it just doesn't feel like home anymore. I've realized that you only stay close with a few friends from high school. Most of your closest friends are from college. My b-day's in less than 2 weeks and i'm hoping i can go to canada with my friends. In exactly 2 weeks, i'll be in kansas. I'll be back july 29th. I get back from alpha kappa psi's biennial conference aug 4th. and i'm going to the kelly clarkson concert in aug! i'm excited! |
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| gosh i'm so glad to be done with pledging. what a relief. i can't wait till next semester. tailgating, getting involved. so i've realized over the past year that you really can't be just best friends with your guy friends. i no longer expect anything out of my guy friends anymore because they don't beat the girlfriends that a girl has. drama is everywhere and it always follows me .i hate it. can't wait till next week is over |
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| dang I haven't used this thing in ages. so as i was rereading my old passages, I laugh at how much has changed since then. i def don't like my hall first of all. the girls are really antisocial. the girls i was closest to on my floor and I are not that close anymore. thank god i'm living in shaw next year. first semester was a crazy semester and i'm glad that I have more close christian friends now. i hate pledging and I really hope I won't regret pledging because that would be a waste of my semester. school is kicking me in the butt. I'm spending my summer in kansas with my mother. i don't know anyone my age there but I really want to take dance classes because it'll keep me in shape. Maybe I will use this once in a while to update. |
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| it feels so nice to be home. honestly i was homesick after a week at state. i mean it's a nice place but i missed so many things back home. i heard it takes a while to adjust. but my roommate's pretty cool and ppl in holmes are pretty cool. mafia is our fav game on our floor. hehe. and not surprising, most of my good friends are indian. but i still miss our high school groupie.  i won't be back till oct. after this. but big reunion around the holidays! |
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| thanks guys for coming to my grad party. hope u guys had fun. i know u guys did cuz i got so soaked. anyways i really don't wanna leave so soon now cuz i know i will miss my friends so much next yr. they make me who i am. and most of them i've known for years. this reminds me so much of laguna beach the last episode. i cried during that episode. i know i will cry when i say goodbye. so today we had communion and i completely realized that the life i was living was not living for god and it was all for myself. and at that pt i realized i've been so selfish to God and i needed to change that. i really hope this retreat will be life changing.
wow i seriously am losing interest in xanga. anyways so like finally getting to chill with my silly girls yesterday was nice. it's been a while since we hung out together. They're the ones who have seen me crazy the most. Even summer can make it harder for us to hang out. imagine college when most of us are not gonna be in the same city as each other. but i am seriously gonna miss them dearly. even though i said i was glad to be out of high school, i will miss the good times of it. this summer is almost over. less than a month i will be gone living on my own, with a new person, meeting new people. as much as i want to leave troy, i am also leaving my silly friends. at least my christmas week is like 3 weeks. haha. |
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